When the Universe Speaks...
it can be so loud, ignoring it is not an option. Rail against the Universe or accept the message and trust all as it is meant to be. A(nother) lesson in acceptance and gratitude.
Oh, what a couple of months it has been!
Thank you, dear reader, for holding in there while I was given (gave myself) a complete reset. A minor 4-day bout of COVID triggered an earache to end all earaches. Right hand side - my ear and physical direction were totally blocked. It knocked me down, sent me to ER where I needed to pass out to get attention - I won’t bore you with further details - and was sent home drugged to the eyeballs (thank you temporary pain relief). Continued pain forced a medical journey of 7 doctors and 3 ER trips and a referral to an enlightened ENT who immediately made room for an appointment and then surgery before Christmas.
Two days before the ENT appointment I am taken to ‘ear operation’. I dismiss it as extreme - how we ignore the signs! Angels abounded in numbers, visions, and even the ‘Angel Clear’ sanitiser in the prep room reassured me all was well.
Following surgery, pain subsided, and I can’t tell you the gratitude I felt and still feel towards my infinitely caring husband, the referral doctor, ENT and staff who helped resolve the physical. There is nothing like pain to remind one of compassion for suffering.
I am also incredibly grateful for the healers in my life who checked in with me and offered their insight, guiding me ever inwards. The degree of the blockage reflected the degree of resistance I had to listening to my inner compass and not just on this physical plane.
There is nothing like pain to remind one of compassion for suffering.
So what have I learned?
I’ve learned to fully STOP. To trust that what is in my Highest Good is for the Highest Good of all. I’ve learned that I energetically trapped others vitriol in my body to the point of overload. Listening to others’ anger and resistance reflected an ancestral imbalance, energetic resistance in other dimensions including an encounter with ‘Thor’, a dark shadow self entity and I have also learned that this path was inescapable (more on this in another article).
Undergoing general anaesthetic creates a space where our brain’s Default Network System is over-ridden and allows our Higher Self/ Source to create a reset without resistance from the physical.
I have also learned to accept the support of others. Beyond infancy, never have I had such an extended period of needing to be cared for. Learning to accept others’ care - physically, emotionally, mentally, financially - is quite a lesson in itself. Again, so much gratitude for those who are connected to me, who sent messages and checked in with helpful suggestions to restore harmony (you know who you are x).
Gratitude too, for those who were not supportive, who didn’t listen when I explained the intensity of the pain, who were absent. Infinite love to these souls in a human body. How has the deafness reflected my refusal to listen to me first and foremost? Emotions of betrayal, etc are all invitations to continue the healing asked for in this physical lifetime.
The futility of fighting the journey is also uppermost in my understanding. I did all I needed to to get to the point of illness. And I have done and NOT done all that has been needed to recover. Well played, Higher Self!
Onwards
Onwards, with a greater appreciation of THIS moment. Today I am returned to my journal from 8 October, days before illness struck. In it, I examine the Shamanic Medicine Wheel.
The Shamanic Medicine Wheel comprises of the cheetah, hummingbird, eagle and snake. Perhaps there is something for you too in this message:
WEST
The cheetah symbolises the West. In this space we are invited to examine our relationships with others and ourselves and in every dimension. As we do so, we are invited to release the toxic and energy draining connections we have created. Generally, these connections are co-dependent, hiding secondary gains (dig deep). Can we trust that loving others and allowing them to continue on their own path will not harm them, nor us? Sometimes, especially as healers, we are here specifically to remember this.
NORTH
The hummingbird reminds us to BE unconditional love, to tread lightly, to know our passion and how to show it. This awareness allows us to share and to hold non-judgment for all, knowing that each are Divinely guided and not least of all ourselves.
If we have lost our joy and passion, where did we leave it? At what age did we learn to let it go? Find it! Invite it fully back into our lives. We are not dictated to by the past unless we choose to be.
SOUTH
The snake is a powerful symbol, inviting us to connect with our wisdom and to heal events from the past. Yes, we live best in THIS moment, and sometimes we also need to focus on what is past to see it in a different light. How have our hurts, regrets, emotionally ‘protecting’ ourselves from vulnerability held us back? The snake invites us to find complete acceptance and unconditional love for self to create harmony in the now.
EAST
A repeated symbol - I see the eagle everywhere! The eagle is a powerful spiritual symbol, reminding us to take a birds-eye view. To be courageous, stretch limits, and to strike with determination, focus, and speed. To connect with our intuition and take this time to visualise the next chapter as you want it to be without limitation.
The Next Chapter
How would life be different if we could look to the gift in the experience, apply gratitude, and move with ease and grace rather than fighting what was/is?
So how do you want the next chapter to be? We are Divine manifestors and what we focus on we create - it feels fitting that as the year comes to a close that we should be reflecting on this.
Wishing you infinite love and blessings
Michelle x
Michelle Cowles
Spiritual Leader/Teacher/Learner
Copyright Michelle Cowles 2023
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